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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-25 06:47 am

I hate my job.

 I am so pissed, y'all. I was told, before I went out, that I would have overtime to get caught up. That was a lie, apparently, and as far as I'm concerned, my backlog is Ken's problem now. I'm not breaking my neck to do this for $17 an hour. Absolutely not. It'll get finished when it gets finished. Add a zero to the end of my yearly take-home and we can talk. 

I need to bring my checkbook to work. I owe the union money, and the legal protection plan. Gotta square up. I also asked off for Wednesday-Thursday-Friday off for my birthday weekend, which will be nice. We're going to go to Seaside and to a baseball game, and maaaaaaybe a zoo. I really want to go to a zoo. 

Anyway, I want to call out - it would serve Ken right - but I'm just petty enough to want to do that, not petty enough to actually do it. So I better get ready.

 

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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-24 06:36 am
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As the World Turns

Cal got his mysterious bonus last night, so we went hog wild. (If hog wild means buying stuff we need, like laundry detergent and ibuprofen, and setting aside money to get car car fixed). I bought a license for iMazing, so this weekend will be dedicated to fixing the itunes library. I also bought Cal his big Christmas present (A grey switch lite with all the trimmings). I asked if we could get a hotel room for the weekend of my birthday, but we decided that was too expensive, and Cal wasn't prepared to spend the night out. It's going to be hard on me, but we're having a daytrip, then.

My first day back at work was... okay. I spent most of the morning going through email and trying to get organized, which wasn't working very well; I was pretty overwhelmed. The latter half of the day was spent on a May bank rec I'd abandoned because it made no sense. There's still something wrong, but I managed to figure out the bulk of it: 15 cleared checks weren't on the post check register. I'm still figuring out what the ripple effect of that is, but I'm off by less than $100 now rather than $3000. My plan today is to simply print out everything again, one set at a time, and double-check my numbers. 

My trash can disappeared while I was gone; Scott has to order a new one for me.

We did not vote on the new contract; too many people out on vacation. On the one hand, I'm not too pressed about it; the owner took his time negotiating the contract, we can take our time ratifying it. On the other hand, I want my goddamn raise and backpay. 

 

 
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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-23 06:22 am

Gonna go to work. Gonna get paid.

 First day back at work, yay! I've got my smoothie, I've taken my pills, and now I'm writing my journal entry. I was going to clock in at 7 and start right away, per the shop steward, but Ken contacted her and told her to tell me not to do that, that he wants to go over things with me himself. Which, fair enough. It has been a month and a half, and I'm sure he wants me to prioritize certain tasks. 

The appointment to return to work was wild. I'm almost completely healed, which is a very good thing. I have no restrictions at work, which isn't quite a good thing, but I can live with it. When I asked for information on my hirsutism and how to treat it, though (because, while I don't mind the increased testosterone, of course I don't... I grow a beard faster and better than my husband, which is unfortunate when you don't like facial hair), she gave me some information on it. One of the first-line treatments? Weight loss! With the caveat of, "We don't actually know if this helps, but still recommend it!"

Which I hear as, "Lose weight. It won't help, but still." Like, the medical establishment isn't even trying to hide the fatphobia in this one. Gee whilickers.

The big news of the day, though, was Ozzy Osbourne's death. Rest in peace, prince of darkness. Thanks for the music.

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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-22 06:54 am

Last Day of Leave

 So the Phillies game ended last night on a foul (catcher's interference with the bases loaded) which really annoys the shit out of me. It just so happened that it was in our favor, so I've got some conflicting emotions about it. The crowd went nuts when it happened, though. 

I'm gonna try to sub on Unfuck Your Habitat's Patreon. Their tumblr is abandoned, and I really want the guidance in trying to, well... unfucking my habitat. It's stupid of me, in a way, to do this on my last day of leave, but really, I shouldn't have done the cleaning while recovering, anyway. 

I feel like I'm going to get sick. I've got a cough that sucks, and I'm nauseous. This better not be happening the day before I'm due back. I need to be at work tomorrow to vote on the new contract. I guess I'll see about getting some Dayquil today. Stop off at CVS and pick some up, if I can. 

Didn't get very far in my quest to rebuild our music library; I ripped one (1) CD, and that was Bleed Out by Within Temptation. I'm going to start the next in the pile before I go back upstairs to get dressed, but more and more I'm thinking it's just better to be patient and wait until I can buy iMazing. Hoisting the colors is out of the question; I don't know enough about downloading programs safely to do it (I don't even think you can download programs safely. IME they require turning off your virus protection and I'm not going to do that). So buying it it is.

Alrighty. An Acoustic Night at the Theatre is ripping. I'm gonna download the Rune Factory: Guardians of Azuma soundtrack today (because I already own it but don't feel like opening the case - not that that would stop me otherwise). I'm getting there with my video game music, at least. For now, I've got to get dressed and take my meds. Later today I need to move my morning meds back downstairs.

Oh, hey, Theatre is done. Might as well start another.

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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-21 07:49 am

And like a dumbass, I didn’t charge my ipad.

I decided last night that I was too tired to put away my stuff, including my ipad, so it was at 23% this morning. I set it aside and played some Lunar while it charged. Now my Switch is at 5% and my ipad at 68%. I can live with that. 

I also went for a short walk. I’m going to have a really, really hard time at work this week. I’m not prepared physically at all.

So that drive is most definitely dead meat. I’m going to start trying to rebuild our music library as best I can today. I still need to buy iMazing, which will hopefully happen in the next few weeks.

A friend of mine has revealed herself to be… not the best kind of person. I’m mulling over how to handle it. She’s not a terf or fascist or anything like that, but she expressed sympathy for them… and then used the r-slur to describe them. It needs to be addressed, I just don’t know how.

Speaking of terfs, someone brought up Harry Potter in my Final Fantasy IV discord. We worked things out, with a consensus being Do Not Do That (Neil Gaiman’s works are also banned, as an afterthought, as are Marion Zimmer Bradley’s, not an exhaustive list. We phrased it, ”Try to avoid the works of abusers”). But it was dicey for a second, as I think we triggered RSD or something similar in the person who did it, which felt awful.

Anyway, that’s the long and short of it today. 
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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-20 09:00 am

Miscellany and Sundry

 Ugh, I feel like a hot pile. I am so tired; Cal had a Ghost concert last night, and we didn’t get to sleep until about quarter of one. 

I started playing Lunar: The Silver Star Story last night, and I forgot how hard that game was. I wish there was a difficulty switch. Alas, there is not. I don’t know how I feel about Luna’s new voice. She’s got a good singing voice, but it’s not the old Luna’s voice. 

You kids get off my lawn, etc etc. It’s hard when the IP changes hands so many times and the voice actors need to change. At least the song lyrics seem to be intact. 

So anyway. I got my Yamibuy box yesterday, and it was heavy. I picked it up to get it inside like an idiot, then realized what I was doing and called Cal to get it into the kitchen. I went to open it but Cal waved me off, proclaiming that he didn’t trust me with scissors. Inside the box was the loose stuff I’d ordered, and a smaller box with electrolyte drinks. I grabbed the scissors to open it, as Cal had walked away, and promptly stabbed my thumb with them.

It’s sore today, but nothing terrible.

It seems that Infinity’s Dragons was mostly untouched by the bug on 4TheWords; at least, the first two books were. I’m working through each book; I have Infinity’s Dawn, and Infinity’s Requiem to go, but so far, no missed words, thankfully.

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magelin ([personal profile] magelinlin) wrote2025-07-25 01:03 am
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WHAT THE HEACK I HAVENT POSTED IN SEVERAL MONTHS :(
…and thats totally fine with me! when i first got here, there was this constant feeling inside my head that told me “i need to do and try everything here”. but then i realised, why do i push myself so much? i could just post here and learn things, little by little. so thats what we are doing!
anyways, could i just say one thing : this website feels a bit more private than tumblr. well, because it is a bit more private than tumblr, i suppose. what i mean to say, is that i feel more comfortable writing out stuff here. while i enjoy the way tumblr works, sometimes it feels a bit too public. but its probably because i got mutuals who look at my posts XP which is not a bad thing, but i just dont know how to word that kinda feeling haha.
anyways, i have been going thru some medical procedures.. feeling kinda nervous ^^’
cw : describing blood draws? might make some people uneasy, so yeah.
blood draw )
anyways (wait, i used that word too many times!).. after im done with all that, im thinking of doing another deltarune run! so, in the initial playthrough that i did, i didnt fight any secret bosses at all. i also missed on some cool stuff, and i missed some recruits as well.. so im gonna create a completely new save! also i kinda miss the game already even though i finished it mere weeks ago haha.
to the person who is reading this, have a good day! or morning. or evening, whatever it is in your timezone!
thats all i wanted to write, im going sleep mode now ^^


 
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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-19 07:35 am

Behold: My Stuff

 So I'm trying something new. I'm writing my journal entries on 4thewords, and then pasting them into Dreamwidth. Anything to boost my word count, haha.

I barely got anything accomplished yesterday. I was so ridiculously tired. I did manage to go grocery shopping, and we had Chinese food for dinner. We had such a hard time putting the leftovers away, and I had such a horrible stomach ache all last night. 

We watched Hollywood Graveyard last night, too, for the first time since Mom passed. We stopped because neither of us were feeling great about watching a video about dead people, regardless of it being a memorial thing and in no way disrespectful, so soon after her death. It's been two years now, and we got through it without feeling too terrible; adding to the terribleness for me was that it was so close to her birthday, which I almost got through without thinking about. My brother brought it up that night, needing comfort, and I kinda dropped the ball on that, because the mention of her birthday made me feel absolutely awful

In other news, Donna texted me yesterday that we have a contract! We just need to vote on it when I'm back; the vote will be the day I return. I don't actually know how I'm going to manage at work with my chronic issues; I didn't realize how bad it was until I didn't have to fight through eight hour days every day. I'm going to ask for Lyrica at my next doctor appointment. I need something to help with the fibromyalgia, and gabapentin isn't helping.

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piratequeen ([personal profile] piratequeen) wrote2025-07-19 12:05 am
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Book Review: The Ministry of Time by Kaliane Bradley

The Ministry of Time by Kaliane Bradley

[Goodreads | Storygraph]

3.75 / 5 stars

More under the cut )
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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-18 10:07 am

I gotta stop doing this.

I keep having really bad nights and then making it Calvin’s problem. Although he told me last night wasn’t entirely my fault; his arms started hurting horribly. He has really bad carpal tunnel (diagnosed) and refuses to go back to the hand doctor because doing so may result in being referred for surgery.  

Anyway, we went grocery shopping and to be frank got a bunch of stuff we don't strictly need. But! It's nice to have nice things, and we didn't go hog wild. The money wasn't *wasted*, just spent on things that we could've done without. 

The plus side is that we have plenty of dinners now, which is my main concern. The three of us can figure out breakfast and lunch ourselves, but we need dinners. 

Alright, well. Time to go write. Or play video games. Either or.
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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-17 07:47 am

My head HURTS

So last night was a rough night. I woke up at 3 AM with my stomach hurting HORRIBLY. I took my cpap mask off in case I needed to get to the bathroom quickly, which pissed Cal off and he went to sleep downstairs. In the process, he discovered that mouse traps had somehow gotten into the recycling container and there was a mouse inside. He didn’t put those traps in there and wasn’t dealing with it at 3 AM, so he put the container outside so he didn’t have to hear it. 

On the plus side: I got my disability, including the missing week, which is a relief. I’ve already initiated a $1000 transfer, and will be plunking $100 in from an ATM to cover the potential overdraft that’s looming. Then we go to Sprouts. Because I love Sprouts.

In fact, just loaded the app onto my phone, and took out a piece of software that Samsung keeps trying to foist onto me. I hate this spyware shit. Used to be that spyware was seen as malicious. Now it’s ubiquitous enough to be expected and I HATE it.
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Zarla ([personal profile] zarla) wrote2025-07-16 09:05 pm

~It's just you and me, it's just myself and I. We are all that we need, we are all that survives.

I keep going back and forth between Aokabu and Deltarune thoughts, I want to think about both of them and it's hard to balance them! Then out of nowhere yesterday, I woke up with a few lines in my head for this scene in Vargas I've been stuck on for years. I started it back before I hurt my arm in like, 2021, and I've chipped at it occasionally but it'd mostly been sitting there mocking me.

I should've drawn something, but I figured I'd have to ride the inspiration as long as it was there. Just get the ball rolling. I ended up banging out like 11k in one sitting. IT FELT GREAT.

I got through the scene and it played out a bit differently than I expected. I have a lot of scraps of scenes in that file I played out and didn't use, or hadn't found a place for, or wanted to get down a certain turn of phrase, and a bunch of them don't work anymore now. There are still some other scraps I'd like to work into it... and it's just a first draft, but still! I got a good chunk into the next scene too, although it went in a totally different direction than I planned. I'm trying to think of a good stopping point for it. It'd be amazing to finally get a whole draft done for the chapter after all this time. I joke sometimes that the stars have to align for me to write a new chapter for Vargas, it can't be predicted, BUT THAT'S REALLY WHAT IT'S LIKE SOMETIMES.

Really does feel good to get the ball rolling on it again. This fic will follow me to my grave.

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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-16 08:06 am

Nervous.

So the DOL sent the money. Haven’t gotten it yet. Of course I haven’t. I feel like contacting them and being like, ”Yeah, “sent on the 15th” is a lie unless it’s sent BEFORE the close of business. Y’all wouldn’t accept “2-3 business days after payday” from your employer, why do you think it’s okay to do to us?”

I’m just. So aggravated. People have bills to pay.

I’m trying to stay up today. I don’t know if I will; I’m very sleepy. I’ve been sleeping like utter crap lately. 

I reported a user on AO3 for scamming; they got removed under the spam rule, which is fine. The key is to get them off the service and make it clear that behavior is unacceptable. 

Anyway, I better go do something if I’m going to stay awake. 
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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-15 07:42 am
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Next week!

I’m back at work next week! I’m both ready and not. Like, I really feel like it would be best for me to not work, but damn if I know what to do with myself anymore. And disability is hell to get. 

I had a hell of a time yesterday, though. RSD going NUTS. I was positive all my friends, my coworkers, and the priest from the local catholic church (Yes, really, I called them yesterday, which I will go into next paragraph) hated my guts. “No one likes you,” the RSD was screeching at me, “because you’re a FAKE. Your writing sucks, you don’t know how to don’t know how to do your job, you’re faking your physical disabilities, and you’re faking your psychiatric difficulties!”

And that last one kind of snapped me out of it because lol, WHAT. What the hell was that, brain?

Anyway, yes, calling the local catholic church. CW: Discussion of death and Catholicism )
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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-14 08:31 am

Is Kain Good With Kids? On the Next Episode of FFIV BRAINROT!

So I HC Kain as being really good with kids, although canon itself says he’s not. He’s really, really abrupt with Rydia at the beginning of the game, a girl who is grieving and terrified. Then again, what happened at the beginning of the game was kind of an emergency, and maybe they just didn’t have the time to be gentle with her.

I have not been sleeping well at all. I got up at about 6 today, but got sleepy and cold in the middle of my breakfast and went back to sleep right after, didn’t get up again until 8. I’m starting to get nervous. How am I going to function at work?

I’m going to do the checkbook and then try to write. I feel sick about the situation we’re in, but I can’t do anything further about it. Just need to hope. 
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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-13 05:38 pm

ARGH

I’ve had all I can take of Facebook. So pissed off. “Liberals stood with Palestine! Liberals stood with Ukraine! When will liberals stand with AMERICA?!” My friend, unless you are admitting that the USA is owned by Israel and Russia, your “gotcha” whining is nonsensical. “The same people protesting Alligator alcatraz wanted to put us in camps for rejecting the jab!” That *literally* never happened, dipshit. That sentiment was 100% made up and broadcast ONLY in your own circles. The rest of us were trying to make sure our communities survived.

I can’t even with conservatives. Disingenuous liars. All of them.

Anyway, I don’t remember what was going on this morning, but I played Breath of Fire 3, and will likely play more. I cheated some more, but I don’t care. I’m playing for the story.

I hate the disability system. Due to their bullshit way of doing things, I’m going to be unable to pay a major bill on time. Not because I won’t have the money. I will. But because it won’t be in a form I can actually use until 2-3 days AFTER I “get paid”. I’m trying not to stress about it too much. There’s nothing I can do about it. I’ve done everything I can. It still burns me that this situation is happening.

Anyway, time for more video games.
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Amethyst Stormsong ([personal profile] joshuaorrizonte) wrote2025-07-12 10:08 am
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I’m not okay.

I’ve lost all interest in my writing and almost all interest in video games.

Psychiatrist appointment in 20 minutes, although we’ll be delaying med adjustment until the hormone panel is done.

I’m just. Exhausted.